I realise
Sunday, May 20, 2012 @ 11:34 AM
that I can actually hate things which such intensity. Makes my blood boil and all. I know it's partly my fault that I actually come to hate something, but I can't help but push all blame to the thing I hate. And makes me wanna curse and swear at it. DAFUQ!!!!! WHY WHY WHY WHYWHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYwsflsdhflsdhlskd;fhafhlsdhdshhdsfjasasjffasjsdjkfdjsdjxvhcbvxvbouisdfhgsdjkfgbdslkfjbsfbajkdfskdfa FK IT ALL!! CURSES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'M SO BLOODY FRUSTRATED RIGHT NOW THAT I COULD DESTROY MY KEYBOARD IF I WANTED TO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111111
QWHY WASN'T I FKING INFORMED BEFORE I FINISHED EVERY FUCKING THING ALREADY!!!!!!!! FUCK!!!!!! SOME FUCKING THINGS JUST ANNOY THE FUCK OUT OF ME!
Sorry. Don't mind this rant post.
/chills
Some Tsuritama rant
Friday, May 18, 2012 @ 7:53 PM
Lol after watching ep 6 I was riek dafuq was happening. I rewatched the part where everything went crazy 3 times and I still couldn't catch anything. And so I went to research and scrolled thru Tsuritama's tag on tumblr. After awhile I watched that part again and somewhat understood. And 3 things came up on my mind. 1. Fangirls, CHILL THE F OUT NAO LULZ. I think Haru isn't evil and he's just controlled. He was kinda happy that he saw the 'whatever imba creature with dat pink triangle' but when he found out it was imba, he dropped his smile. 2. I HATE THE FANDOM...Well, I didn't 'join' any Tsuritama fandom so to speak, but as you know I scrolled through the tag on tumblr, and- You know what I mean. 3. Some of the characters are awesome shizzzzz even tho they didn't talk much or talk at all at the beginning few ep. But they're like the most awesome now. I like Tsuritama for it's character arc. They grow so much. (Well, there're only 11 ep, so of course!!) So anyway. After more than 1/2 of the series, we finally dwell into the actual story. No more hint hints already. I wonder what's gonna happen in the next 5 eps. Anticipating~~
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Tsuritama aside, I've decided on a list of stuff to watch during June hols ^^ I will make full use of the 3 wks. Spamming animanga, prac drawing, and most of all, RESTING :):) Then go full throttle in term 2. Well, 2 weeks left of hell for term 1. Everyday I think, wtf? How can we finish so many things in 2 wks...and I still have to watch movies and write reports for them. (Yet I have the time to watch Tsuritama, go tumblr and rant in my blog.) Hoho...Today shall be the last day of slacking for the next 2 wks (obvious lies). So bai bai oxygent and bai bai my readers (if I have any, lol)
P.S. Akira is awesomeee. Isn't one of the 4 main chars for nth! I thought he was just for show!
Gun of the turban? Srsly lol!!!
LOOK AT DAT.
His poker-yet-epic face before being slammed in the face by a hugeeeee tuna~ So cute!! XD
I swear
Thursday, May 17, 2012 @ 11:51 PM
that Akira has got the most "STALKER" face EVER! SOMEONE GIVE THIS INDIAN DUDE AN AWARD PLEASE!
Anyway if you are a follower of my tumblr, I think you know that recently I really, really like Tsuritama :) It's a great anime so far. I hope it doesn't disappoint me towards the end.
You know, there are some days I really hate being a woman. Well I'm sure you know what I mean. It sucks. It really does. Today I rolled around in bed, crying, and even needed my mom to make a heat pack for me. SUCKS!!!!!!!! DAMN IT!!!!!!!
edit: Alright I wrote this like on sunday and today's friday. I forgot to publish lol! Anyway life kinda sucks right now. Extremely weary, hw piled up higher than mt. Fuji, and *someone* looks down on me AGAIN. le sighs. I hope I can pull through and survive:) Blog another time, gotta chiong hw.
MAYA
Thursday, May 10, 2012 @ 12:04 AM
I think, I think just one fine day, I'll be killed by Maya. No, seriously. It's taking away my sleep, my brain cells, my eyesight, my health, my...u shld get it lol. Maya? Pui pui pui! Anyway this' gonna be a short post since staring at the screen any longer will render me blind. LOL
Friends say I should use twitter...but I'm too lazy to maintain and use twitter...oh well haha.. Blogger lets me type more... Like essay woohoo! And I suck at maintaining stuff. Rmb my flickr? It's dead. Well kind of because I don't post drawings online anymore. Rather, I have no drawings to post online even if I wanted to. I think I'll use tumblr to post drawings next time... Idk.. see first
Will not speak about this matter anymore
Sunday, April 22, 2012 @ 10:45 PM
Well, I'm thinking this but not in the romantic or love kind of way. Someone close to me is putting me down on what I'm studying right now.
She says that I have no talent in drawing and that I don't have a
future. And she says that alot. I have enough of hearing those words.
Every day I think that I will sleep in the streets and eat grass next
time. That I'll do really badly and become jobless and loll around doing
nothing all day. Just a useless piece of meat. I understand it's not
the most "ideal" thing to study, and there are many reasons why I kind
of regret it right now. But since this decision, and the decision to
continue is made already, why not support me instead of throwing me into
the gutter and crush all my hopes and dreams?
Anyway this will be the last time I'll be speaking about this because it does not help dwelling about it all the time. I shall just channel all my energy into working hard, get out of my psychological slump, and climb out of the gutters ^^
(Image from here, source unknown, possibly a manga. Looks like a guy from a gay manga tho! Lol! I don't read BL of any kind...just got the vibe lol)
Blogger changed!!!!!1
Saturday, April 21, 2012 @ 7:04 PM
Ok I heard that it has changed long ago but I refused to change hahas. Okay anyway when I said I had drawing hw SOMEONE had to say I don't have talent again. Nvm...After sch started I felt that I have more confidence in doing my work (Alright this wouldn't last long). But anyways, I felt better than during the hols lol. So anyway instead of whining and crying I think I should work hard instead to show that I ACTUALLY HAVE TALENT (Even if it's just a tiny little bit) Now go suck it, u jelly u can't draw and I can. No one starts out awesome (YOU SAID IT YOURSELF BEFORE AND NOW WTF?) So yeah. You're the reason why my confidence is in the gutters right now. Now. There's no turning back so WHY CAN'T U JUST STFU ABOUT ME HAVING NO TALENT! I HAD ENOUGH ALREADY! I WILL SHOW YOU ONE DAY! YOU THINK JC IS EASY? BETTER? MORE FUTURE? OH YEAH? SO WHAT IF IT DOES? WHAT THE HELL CAN I DO NOW? JUST SUCK IT ALL AND CONTINUE STUDYING RIGHT. SO PLEASE STOP SAYING I HAVE NO TALENT/NO FUTURE! I DON'T WANT TO HEAR ANY OF THOSE SHITS ANYMORE!!!! IF YOU THINK BEING A DOCTOR/LAWYER/ACCOUNTANT HAS MORE FUTURE THEN WHY DIDN'T YOU BRAINWASH ME LAST TIME INSTEAD OF SUGAR-COATING YOUR WORDS AND SAYING "U SEE PARENTS NOWADAYS FORCE THEIR CHILDREN TO GO TO TUITION, BLABLABLA!" YOU ARE THE EXACT SAME AS THEM! SO DON'T ACT LIKE YOU'RE DIFFERENT FROM THEM. BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT! YOU ARE ADDING TO THE VERY STRESS I AM HAVING NOW. SO, PLEASE, JUST SHUT THE HELL UP ABOUT ME HAVING NO TALENT. IT'S NOT HELPING AT ALL. NOT HELPING. I WILL NOT BE HINDERED BY THOSE USELESS WORDS ANYMORE. THAT'S NOT THE WAY TO SAY THINGS. I ALREADY KNOW VERY, VERY WELL BY MYSELF THAT MY DRAWING ISN'T THE BEST. AND I DON'T NEED SOMEONE TO SPOUT NONSENSE BESIDE MY EAR SAYING THAT I'M LOUSY ALL THE TIME. IT AIN'T GONNA MAKE ME IMPROVE. NOW. GO WATCH YOUR DRAMAS AND STOP SAYING UNNECCESSARY STUFF TO ME. I AM AT MY LIMIT ALREADY. IF YOU'RE GONNA SAY ANYMORE I AM JUST GOING TO EXPLODE INTO LOTS OF PIECES. I HAVE LEARNT FROM PEOPLE THAT NO MATTER WHAT YOU STUDY, IF YOU DON'T MAKE AN EFFORT YOU WON'T HAVE A FUTURE. STUDYING SCIENCE ISN'T GOING TO GUARANTEE YOU A GOD DAMN JOB. I TELL YA I DON'T LIKE WHAT I'M STUDYING NOW AND ALL I HAVE IS JUST A LITTLE BIT OF MOTIVATION TO STUDY ON. FUCK IF U KEEP SAYING RUBBISH YOU'RE JUST CRUSHING ALL THAT BIT OF MOTIVATION I HAVE LEFT. SO PLEASE FUCKING STOP SAYING THOSE FUCKING USELESS STUFF!
Alright, I'm so sorry. Don't read those words in CAPS. I feel a little better now lol
This is so cool!!
Saturday, April 14, 2012 @ 8:57 AM
Found out something cool on 9gag.. is like making your own "song" kinda thing hehes
Mine is here http://www.incredibox.fr/?music=1334365038-3349
I dedicated it to myself LOL!!!!!! (and fine to all my readers too hahahah) Stupid song title too cuz I'm too lazy to think of something...nice.
Hehes
I woke up ultra early today for some reason. Hmmmmmm
Time to eat!! I think cuz I'm hungry. I had stomach pain before I slept ytd. Maybe too hungry hoho
Lolz my mom's scared that I'll become weird and crazy after I joined something related to the arts. Ok...I think I'll die instead of becoming weird/crazy Lols. WTF 16 year old self.. WHY WHY WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
short post ^^
Tuesday, April 10, 2012 @ 1:21 AM
Well, my life up till now was kinda a lifeless life, what can I say ^^ fb-ing, 9gagging, mapling, reading manga wheeee, and I slacked alot, alot on drawing recently. hohos
And I realised...I'm irritating ;o;
No one told me that, and they wouldn't also, but I think I am irritating. I think I talk too much Lol And rant and saying stuff that they don't care about.
But no one's perfect right ^^ *self-consoling lulz*
Ok and despite all my rude scolding in the previous post. I AM gonna work hard lol. If not whut. Give up and die? No no no. I wanna grad with flying colours ahahaha
Can I get 3.5? Maybe...... (As much as I wanna say "YES!!!", I'm not that kind of a confident person.)
I seem like some prick with bipolar disorder now Lol ...
Am I having PUBERTY?? LOL!! Late puberty? HAHA!! Means I still got chance to grow tall lehs...
Anyway few months back I was saying how HORRIBLE Blue Exorcist was.. Few days ago I was bored and decided to read it. And hell it was a great manga. Less demon-ey than I expected it to be. And it's actually interesting! Well sometimes u gotta give things a second chance I guess. But that can mean you might fall into the same trap twice. Chances, chances. Sigh
I know I'm frickin' slow but I recently started playing Draw Something. SLOW RIGHT LAWLZ!!!! If you see this n you know me u can start a game with me if u wan...ehehehs I'll try to respond quick ^^
Sch is starting... Ahhhh...I kinda anticipate it but I don't want to go to sch too...what the... hahahas. Gonna deco my table in a few days. I have no idea what to deco tho and have been bugging people about it (and thus, coming to the conclusion that I'm irritating). I wanna make Rin n Kuro paper dolls now ^^ and put in class
It's 1.33 am and I'm not sleepy at all. Holidays totally screwed my body clock up.
PROBLEM, BODY?
But in a few years time, my body will troll me back. Twice as hard.
P.S. I intended this to be a short post when I started typing it, but it ended up... Like this. Hohohoho
Bonus: Accessory crafting LIKE A SIR
DAFUQ IS WITH LIFE?????
Friday, March 30, 2012 @ 6:47 PM
Last time I have always believed that when hard work is put in, results will come. But not anymore. Life will always fail your expectations. So what if you pour all your heart and your soul? So the saying "with high expectations come great great disappointments" is true.. You know what? _|_ YOU!! People have high expectations because they work hard. And all you give are disappointments. I wonder how many people who have never worked actually do better than those who did. Well, FUCK U LIFE!!! And I'm and NOT sorry for using vulgarities!! Because I'm butt hurt right now. Maybe it looks like I can't handle failure well. Well maybe it's true. I will need a few days to get over this shit...
Day by day, I think I'm living more like a zombie.. I'm living for the sake of living, not for anything else. There's no goal, no promises, nothing for me to be hyped up about... It's like I'm not living for myself... What are passions? What are goals? All of this shit, screwed up my life so bad.. You know what, I threw all of my goals and passions away already, and is studying for the sake of getting the hell of poly.. Young ladies and gentlemen with a brighter future than me, please do not make the same mistakes as I did.
Life is such a living hell, but oh well, I signed this up myself.
Probably the worst mistake of my life.
I want to get my youth back......
510
@ 10:07 AM
omg.. I wanna cry... Ok I'm crying already... How the hell did my 3DF get B+ ? Or rather, how did I see my results wrongly for the 1st time!! Impossible!!! I got A for CA1 and CA2?? Unless I screwed up my CA3 badly? DAFUQ?? Instead I got A for TANI... Well I'm supposed to be happy.. but I rather I got A for 3DF and B+ for TANI.. (because I thought all along my TANI will get B+ so I didn't expect much) I wanna bang my head on the wall already.. Ok the number (GPA) didn't change, means I really saw my results wrongly for the first time on 20th march... But I had high expectations for 3DF!! And I wanted to choose the character creation modules which uses more 3D.. But idk anymore.. tsk.. Maybe as the rest said since they won't do animation (I SERIOUSLY WON'T) when they leave poly...Maybe I should just choose the easier route
As an animation student I shouldn't be hating what I'm doing but...damn it all...
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